Reaching my Maximum Capacity

The thing about having a new part of my body, this band that is my savior, is that I am having to learn to eat all over again. People who have had the surgery before, and Dr. Keshishian, warned me that as I began to eat real food again I would have to learn what I can handle now. Eat things slowly, listen to your stomach and to the band. I was also told that it would probably take awhile before I would learn and I would most likely throw up a few times. I have tried to do this and I know what my body can handle in what quantities for the most part. When I am trying that first bite I am very careful. I take small bites and wait and feel the sensation that the food causes me. Ground beef is not my friend in any quantity in any meal. One bite and in seconds I can feel the discomfort, flour tortillas are also on the no no list. Today was the first time I let my hunger over ride my better judgement and made myself sick.

There have been days and meals where I have had discomfort. Even times where I felt like I was going to be sick to my stomach, but I avoid at all costs the need to vomit. Today I was unable to avoid that end. I made myself sick because I let the old me try to gulp my food without listening to my band and without thinking about the amount of food I was trying to eat. While I wish that I would have avoided having to throw up I am happy that I was able to experience the negative consequence of eating too much. Maybe this way I will be more careful and be sure to listen to my band and not try to eat too much.