The Night Before

Tonight is the night before surgery. I am feeling a crazy mixture of emotions. I'm afraid because the idea of going under the knife is really scary. I'm beyond excited because I know that when I wake up after surgery tomorrow morning that I am on my way to finally losing weight. Mostly I'm antsy right now, I don't think I am going to be able to sleep tonight and that means this night is going to last forever. I can't concentrate on any thing. My neurons are firing like crazy. I'm thinking about what I'm going to look like once I lose the weight, I'm thinking how food is such an intricate part of our social experience and how I'm losing that. But mostly I'm thinking about how I can't wait for tomorrow to be over and to really get the show on the road and see the new me emerging from my fat cocooon.