It's Almost The End

I've established this blog as a way to share my journey with the lap-band surgery for weight-loss. I grew up thinking I was fat. Even before I really was over weight I thought I was. I remember being in junior high and being mistaken for a teacher. I was already 5'9 and flirting with 170. Not fat by any means but when your surrounded by girls who havn't really developed yet and are like 5'2 and barely 100 pounds, it starts to give you a complex. Once I thought I was fat, I started having the mentality that it didn't matter what I ate anymore because I was fat already. That mentality became my downfall, my weight ballooned. When I graduated high school I was 50 pounds heavier at 220. Through college my weight climbed, topping out at 320.

I made the decision to have the lap-band procedure because I had tried all the diets, I had tried different exercise routines and nothing seemed to work. I'd lose a few pounds here and there, sometimes close to forty pounds but always it came back. Sometimes I'd get discouraged and I would make poor choices, and sometimes it was like my body became immune to whatever diet I was using then. As of today I haven't been less than 280 in more than three years. My weight typically lies right near 300 and has held pretty steady there the past year.

I'm getting my surgery done this Friday with Dr. Keshishian from Central V alley Bariatrics at Delano Regional Medical Center. Resorting to surgery was a difficult decision for me to make, but I am sure that its the right choice for me. There is no question left in my mind. For now its just a waiting game. I've got three more days before surgery, but even better three more days to the rest of my life. A life that is not plagued by weight and health issues.